a chinese letter to dadi

dreams of my dad

i just started seeing my dad in my dreams, and in all of them he is there hanging out with me and is happy. and when i wake up, i am happy too because i feel like i got to spend time with him again.

the first one, i remember he was sitting at my computer, like he always did, because he liked to play with the internet and write emails to everyone. and i was telling him about momi's trip to eastern europe and he said that he would go with her too. and we made plans for him to go with her on the vacation. it was almost like he just came back one day and i had to update him on everything that was going on.

and then the second one, we were having a big family reunion with his family in LA and all his brothers, including my Sixth Uncle who passed away a few years ago, were all there. and everyone was laughing and eating and talking loudly, just like they always are.

and another one is where i was cooking something in the kitchen and he was reading the newspaper at the dining room table with momi. just a casual sunday afternoon when we were all relaxing and spending quiet time at home.

maybe i dream about these times because those are the moments that he loved the most in his life. or maybe it is because i loved them the most with him. or maybe because we both did.

i hope he will visit me often in my dreams, it really makes me happy when i wake up because i feel like i was able to talk to him again.